im gonna make u so proud.

i hate u.
i hate that girl in the mirror
the one without the shine in her eyes.
where did the one who held it together
the one who smiled until it hurt?

please come back.
it's time to show them
show them i can do this.

existance

all i seem to do is exist
never really live.
happiness is what
brings purpose to life.
now i seem so hollow.
without your love
all i seem to do is exist.

smile

ive forgotten how to smile
can u teach how to smile again ?

common sense

wat common sense..
im slow
im deaf
im jst dumb
wit no brain
or common sense

i understand skool
but i nvr seem to show it
im dumb i kno
no need to tell me...

in reality

the looks i show off
decieve u all.
the smiles dnt mean a thing
their worth .001%
of the smiles he gives me

you believe i live quite happily,
in all reality, im quite opposite
though i try my best to get by.

lately my insides turn out
and the emotions run about.
people see what i feel now
& they could care less.
ignoring these feelings
ignoring what i am.

ignorance is bliss in their eyes.
but theres only so much
i can leave behind these eyes of mine
and wipe away memories
etched into my heart.

ahh..

abusive..
the past points
to a strong possibility..
yea..sad to realize.

we all float on

after long talks
u leave me wantin more
uve made me smile
a true ginuine smile
i missed that
i love that about u

its hard to let go
nd go back to reality
i wish u were here
wed be inseparable,
unstoppable.

but then again,
wen we separate,
we wud be so shattered
so lonely

so much worse
than we r today.

im scared to let go
i love you so much.
plz dont ever go away.

open my eyes

if wat i feel isnt love..
then tell what its like..

i took that damn questioniere
nd i passed ; i was in love.
but it slipped away
as well as that relationship

now my love is questioned.
i say it so easily..really?
i nvr knew. it was hard
the first few times..
cuz well i ddnt mean it
at least not then

i fell in love
so quickly..
so easily..
so blindly..

now im here questioning my own love.
shudnt i be so confident of my love
but now ur showing me a new light

is it love or jst another lust for affection
isnt it love if i fall in a slow quiet sadness
wen i talk to you less nd less?
wen im in my lowest point of sadness
i am alone crying for you,
crying for you to hold me tight
and stay with me through the night.

isnt it love...
i dnt know anymore.

but i know i cud never feel wat i do now
for you , with any other person in this world.

wud u believe me wen i say it?
i need you now..
plz.

ahh..

& we interwined
in love

seas of grass
feel jst like ur hair
against my fingertips
as i stroke it so gently
as if u were there beside me